scars.

2007-12-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

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		24 Dec 07, 01:08 cheryl: Hey dood, cheer up. It was nice talking to you again out of the blue. takecare!
		19 Dec 07, 00:52 CARYL: Be strong Ahgua! Live your life. I'll still be there for you. I know we've drifted apart, but I'm not gonna let this friendship die like that! Ah, I miss you luh. ):
		19 Dec 07, 00:51 CARYL: Slitting your wrist is stupid, I know I use to do that, I don't now. You're a strong person ahgua, I know you are. I'm sure she wouldn't wanna see you like this, am I right? Get a hold of yourself.
		19 Dec 07, 00:44 CARYL: Think of the bright side alright. She's up there, with God. She's in safe hands. She's looking after you and your family from heaven. Stay strong. (: You were there for me before, its time I repay ya.
		19 Dec 07, 00:43 CARYL: Ahgua, I'm really sorry to hear about your Grandma. I've been busy lately therefore I haven't visit your blog in a long time. People leave this world when their time is up.


		13 Dec 07, 21:47 Ah Jie: for Ah mei.. i tag for you le~ =) dun say i mei liang xin. ok? hehee. hope you happy everyday. smile.. =)
		13 Dec 07, 10:30 uncle to aunt: hey aunt...no matter wad...u muz move on k?and reali tc urself aunt...email me like wad we usuali do during holidae k? letter time...tell me wadever u feel like tellin me k?...tc owayls



		12 Dec 07, 00:27 passerby: takecare. (:
		12 Dec 07, 00:18 jocc: hey dude. she's gone but life still moves on.. no matter come what may, she'll still have that little space where you treasure her so dearly in ur heart.. =) anyw glad to cyaz back in sch~

		11 Dec 07, 21:29 Cxindy: it is not made up or exist for fun. Its real but rather useless to a certain extent sometime...i truely know how it feels like having that feeling.

tagged replied

cheryl- thanks!its been long we last chatted. i think few years already((: hahs. still rmb e times when i sec 3 that time. at your condo.

caryl-ah diam. dont worry!thanks alot((:! yeah.keep me update. lols. study hard for Os.

ah jie- thanks ah jie. thanks for your piano. i appreciate alot!

uncle- thanks. dont worry. auntie strong!((:

jocc- thanks. i will take your advice(: take caree.

cxindy- thanks. i try to think about it then.

this blog stop here.
click redirected to new one.
the scars where will never be forgotten..

2007-12-11T13:11:00.000+08:00

After expo,with xerxes, went back to vivo. Get my pay and decide to have lunch at my workplace; thai accent.
After ordering the food, as the food came, just before, I took my bite on the food.
Handphone beep* message received.
“grandma jump down”
Was by my brother. I was shocked. Cause I don’t expect this to happen at all. My mind went blank. I called my grandma house, my aunt picked up den I hang it down. Its true.
Told my friend to quick finish and lets go. I don’t know, I don’t feel sad at that moment. I feeling alright. Perhaps, I was still having the shock by that message.
We walked awhile and nothing much, so began to go back. I took cab,was feeling anxious and worried.
Told the driver to drive faster, was holding back my tears. Was shocked and confused.
Reached her place, which was at cck.
Around the car park, I saw police, police surrounded the place with the sticker.
I don’t know, I was wondering whether I should go up or what, then I break down.
I cried like I never did, I was still wondering whether if it’s a dream.
I hate myself, I hate myself that she did she jumped, and I didn’t stopped her.
After all,
my fear,.. my greatest fear which came true. All this year, whenever I pray to god,
I told god, I don’t mind u shortening down my life and extend for her, i don’t mind, cause I want her to live.cos she must live, I will not let anything happen to her.
I used to believe that as people get older they die will die. And since my grandma is reaching 70, I began to think that maybe she will die ; I don’t know when but I just afraid that it will happen
When I came poly, I heard one of the faci said, as technology become advance, human will tends to live longer, which this I began to felt relieved. I relieved that she wont die so fast and more years with her.

I love her ,I want her to be alive forever.i never thought about what happen if she left us, cause I believe that she wont left us as she will live forever and also I cant allow her to leave us.

She was the one who had been taking care of me, since I was born.
I stayed in her house,which was at yishun back then. she took care of me and my brother. When i was 6, then I moved back to my house at bukit batok.
But this doesn’t end, during holiday, we will persuade our parents to let us stayed at grandma house, for weeks, for days,..
She will cook all her delicacies for us, like her curry chicken, her fried chicken or nugget or her herb black chicken.
I also remembered that when we used to go to market together and sometimes, early morning, we will go down to exercise together.
Seriously, the things she cooked are delicious.
Breathing the fresh air. Hand in hand to market.

I remembered playing majong with her, playing reverse with her.sleeping beside her, remember her sour plum. Which when young, I loved it a lot, her sour plum is those sweet type,
Sometimes, she will called us up and chat with us, at we grow older, we become more busy and the amount of time for us become lesser.

I know she loved us and of cause, we loved her too.
I regret, I regret that why didn’t I called her up and chat with her more in the past?
Why did I neglected her?
A lot of regret I had, and I don’t want anyone of you to feel regret, so treasure someone you loved.

Everytime I had problems with my family, she will be the one solving, visiting us, taking care of me whenever I sick.
She just love to cook her delicacies for us.

Finally, I know the true story.
She slit and she jumped.
Which when I knew it, I felt even more angry and sad at the same time.
Why must she cut, I felt her pain, I thought that jumping down was bad enough, now she still was to slit.
Why must she do that?
I don’t want her to feel any hurt.

I blamed myself, which even with the power, I cant help her, I cant stopped her.is this a power? Or is this something I made up?
What is power? Is it something that I made up? Or is it that it exist only for fun? To let me know how useless I am, that I can help others but not myself. So what is it actually?
That day she called me in the afternoon,1.35pm, she told me that my brother and I must talked, everyone must live in harmony, then she cried and say if she jumped or so ever, don’t sad and stuff.
I didn’t take much notice, because, she used to say something like this, so what I did was console her and stuff, I told her not to think too much, don’t worry, you wont die.
And she say okay okay.
But why did she still DID it in the end?!
Why? Tell me!!
4.13pm is the time she jumped down.
She called my brother at 4.11.she asked my brother whether can he come over and see her.
Den my brother was out with my family.
So he cant.
They hang up at 4.12
Den my brother called back at 4.13pm
She didn’t pick up at all.
So I concluded that she jumped at around 4.13- 4.49pm
I don’t hate my brother.
Cause I know they she did it, we cant stopped her.

I regret is I cant help her, I cant see her one last time, I never talked her around,

Even right now, I still cant really accept that she gone.
Somehow and somewhat, I just cant accept it.
She was just like my only hope in life,which I will have dreams and have target in life.
But after she was gone, everything shattered.
I seriously don’t know what to do.

I want her, I want her to celebrate each other birthday every year,I want her to see my girlfriend, I want her to attend my wedding , I want her to carry my child, I want my child to call her great grandma.
I miss her, I miss her food, I miss her when she called me, I miss her calling my nickname,”ah da” i don’t know why they called me that but it something that I was being called from young, I miss hugging her, the feeling of cooling feeling, I miss kissing her cheek,
I still remembered that when I was in primary, I cried in public, because of her wrinkled hand, I saw her wrinkled hand and I pull as though it was only skin and no meat there. I just feel sad and I cried.
The album which she kept, when I was young, began to bring back more memories.
And she just leave like this.even so, I want her to appear in my dream. And tell me how is she and what she need., I wondered how is she.
When ever I cried, I still can hear her voice in my mind.” bu yao ku, guai, bu yao ku”
As for now, either I accept this power or just forget this power and swear that I never use it at all.
If I accept the power, should I help even more people in the future and those who lost their loved ones or those who want to commit suicide.
If I reject, I will never help other again, just living In my own world, do my best in everything, that’s it.

I swear to her that I will changed to be a better man. A better person and achieve even better result for everything I do. Putting in even more effort in whatever thing that I do.

Even through this, I might be unfeeling person……………………
02/12/07 is the day she died.

Was there at 1pm. Took cab down on Monday after breakout to there. Was feeling worried and sad.fold paper money for her.
Her bodies came, I cried of cos. I missed her and I want to see her too. They put her in the casket and we see her 1 last time before they closed the casket.
I bought her “malay cake” she like those, cause it was soft. Bought for her fish burger. Sometime she called me and ask me go her house, den we will order mac. Cause she seldom can get to it as she do not know how to order mac.
Folding more money and burning papers to keep the fire in the basin going.tuesday
Went to school with cousin for UT.
Took train back. once in a while, I will talk to her, tell her I missed her and that remember to eat full, and take care of herself, since I am unable to take care of her anymore.

she had chicken burger. Without cream but more vegetables.WEDNESDAYtonight is the last night I am going to see her, I missed her, went to take keyboard from zhen ting.
Borrowed from her.THANKS A LOT! A lots of appreciation! I played some songs for her. Hope she like it,
I regret not letting her know that I can spilt and perform for her to see and also I regret that I never play piano for her.
Sigh*
Doing the same thing but today is the last night.THURSDAYThe day which she is going to be cremate
went to UT,which I don’t really want to go to but went anyway, cab back and we changed out clothes and wore the socks. To me, luckily she is cremate at guang ming shan in ang mo kio . which is better than the lim chu kang. Which means that I can visit her easily and hence more convenience .everything ended so fast, casket was being burned and we ended the whole thing.
Place:L2
Forever in my heart. (:

Friday
Went back school to reformat com.
and return zhen ting her keyboard.
THANKS!!!

2007-12-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

replied tags 1st!

Jknight: okay!relinked!
cindyLOK: Thanks alot!;).
Cxindy: thanks! you know i strong okay!
Zhiyun: thanks!
cousin joey: i know i know!=D. kbox!pub!CHILL!
Delon: thanks alot dude!
Ka man: CHOCOLATE NEH?LOL.thanks ;)
Adelyn:thanks!
LIANA: okay thanks.!

thanks guys for trying to console.
for some , i might replied to them like this.
if they asked, are you okay?

i replied;

what does okay means? if the person say that he is okay does that means that he really okay?
or does that mean that he only okay for that moment or is it he will be okay forever? if he is only okay for that moment, then what for ask if he is okay? since okay for that moment doesnt mean much and he might be not okay in the future.

or if everything will be fine?
if everything will be fine, he wont be sad. and if he is sad, things wont be fine at all. so things will not be fine at all.

anyways, i am just stating my own view.
nevertheless,

friends are being appreciated; especially your words which tried to console and calm the person down.

thanks alot!;)
loves-

today problem is hard, tml i shall update about what happened last week.

2007-12-03T12:20:00.001+08:00

my grandma jumped yesterday.
thats e reason.

i will update soon.

my greatest fear came true.

UPDATED BY HIS SWEET BUDDY!!!

2007-12-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

maybe not coming school this coming week.
because of personal reason.
hehex

this is updated by his sweet buddy. =]
as he is a pig who is playing game.
A BIG BIG LAZY PIG!!!
LOL.

2007-11-26T10:11:00.000+08:00

okay,
summary of jobs.

thanks to sufang and wan ling((:

metro, no. 688363322
cyber, www.dnacyber.com send 1 informal resume
taka shoes promoter.
time:1.30-9.30 6 days per week,1 off wkday.$5.50/h+ commission.
email resume+photo.
starbucks&coffeebean hiring.go branch and ask
munchydonut, send resume to contractme@munchydonut.com

night safari -call 91195158
5.40/h.
4/5/6pm-11/12am

i think i should take a break from school.
tired.

everyone take care uh!
especailly sharon and tish

tisha enjoy your holiday!((:

2007-11-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

read sharon lee blog.((:

i agree that encouragement and support is need and quite important.

cos sunday.
during my performance, as it was my 1st time performing, i was quite nervous.
and yeap.

then my spec flew like a bird during my performance by my sword.
all i heard was a girl saying" bu yong jing bu yong jing, jia you, bu yao guang ta"
asked me to not to mind my spec, dont care it and erm jia you?

but after the show, i forgetten about them as i thought that they are my senior, but in the end they are not.

anyways, i dont know who they are but what i want to say is "thanks!" cos your word affect me alot.((:

2007-11-21T16:57:00.000+08:00

sunday.

lols.
so how e video.

anyways, gona practise my wushu today.
((:

yesterday, adam taught me how to play dota.
crystal maiden.

improving((:

2007-11-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

2007-11-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

2007-11-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

tml gona perform at the park.
nervous.((:

tskkkk.
jia you for me.
tsk=D!

2007-11-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

wed

went for the TRCC

was like 5 of us doing different style for a little while.

we did like VERY COUPLE of time!

den we had dinner.

dinner was okay.

guess what,

with full stomach we went for the rehearseal again.

tskkkkkk.

burp*

went home at around 10pm.

thur

tired*

and guess what, in team 5.

no comments.

friday

having wushu.

and peforming on sunday.

for a little small part.

+ going my cousin concert+ should be visiting my grandpa.

tskkkkk((:

moodless.just feel like giving up on wushu.

playing piano instead.

and piano is getting hard with B flat.

2007-11-14T09:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday,stayed in school doing VB challenge stuffs.
went home at around 9pm.

piano came.
interesting((:

uh huh.

for today,
having entreprise module.

after school, gona be at TRCC.
cos Art central; mediacorp peeps coming down and do some filming.
wushu, hiphop and other ig will be included.

yeap.

((:

-helping soul-

2007-11-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

just chatted with sharon lee, my sweet buddy((:

ytd+tdy
was feeling not good.

not as in a sick way but a slightly problem.
which will affect me.

yeap!

but after i told her the problem, i found out whats e problem((:

thanks buddy.
let me tell u what i analyse

analogy

a heart with emptiness.
finding something to replace the emptiness.
it will depend whether it can go through the door of the heart.
even if it can, the thing might not be able to fixed well with e heart like a jigsaw puzzle.
hence, the person which i concluded, set crtieria by looks.
which i concluded that one day, if she found someone even with better looks or so on, will run away.

and hence,i realised that i had looked for someone just to fill e emptiness , in the end, the pieces dropped out.((:

great!
i fine and i back to who i am!
WHOO!

guardian of all problems((:

2007-11-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

me((:

e ghost snatching cups

she stealing golds

awesome rite.pictures for the day. anyways, birthday picture wil be upload tml.

anyways,got back math UT. B+. -.-

tml math UT 2.study hard guys((:

2007-11-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

thurs after work
went home and changed.

den went ton with corene and stuff

went all around
cabbed around.

LOL.
pictures shall do talking.
upload soon.

friday, was sleeping at home
din go for wushu.

was my bro birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

pictures upload soon.

sat, was working
and guess what?
i sold my own 1st personal VACCUM!
no one helped me.
sold all by myself.
great rite, the most expensive vaccum i ahvin now.
$858
totally cool.

anyways, new promoter.
kdk.
called jie lun.
cool.
nyp, year 2

sunday
little customer, but managed to sold the 2nd vaccum
$648!
((:

i think perhaps jie lun bring me luck.
^^.

tml schooling.

listened to kelly stories. on the phone.
anger over whelming but i learn
i learn things that i shouldnt do, so that i wont hurt a girl anymore.

read buddy blog.
i realised that i rather i absorb all their problems.
and my problems doesnt really matter to me.
i changing my mindset, controlling my feelings and how i think.
sometimes, liking someone , cant be control.
but i think i will change it, since i have the power to do so.
((:
trust me and myself.

piano coming on tue.
((:

canon in D is back
it set my mind thinking back again.

2007-11-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

hello.
just back from out with
corene,haiboon and sufang.

morning,woke up at 10am
damn gosh, i was late for meeting with peeps.
sorry guys.

cos last night after finish phone call with the ah lian, den tish called.
first time really chatted with her and stuff.
so anyways, chat and she told me about her problem, and i know her more.

so chatted till 5.30am.

anyways, the meeting with Mr Aw too.
great, this increase the progress for us, so mainly we dont have any much problems.

was feeling tired and sleepy.

yeaps.
tml gona work.

damn.think about the money,great.
cant wait to get $ for more stuffs((:

2007-11-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

went to school.
reached RP at 11.30
then began to practise e piano while waiting for the rest to come.

thinking about our VB program.
interesting((:

anyways, been thinking.
i read from somewhere.

"once day you should praise people of something that they done. examples,your mom cooking.

so if you feel uncomfortable or something hard to say, why is it so natural for you to complain and criticize people?
those actions are something that affect us, our environment that we are in which makes us comfortable with it and we should unlearn them."

i promise i changed from this seconds.
no more criticizing or hurting people anymore.
begone evils..

tskkkkkkkkkkkk.
tml shall go school and practise piano again
;)
perhaps outing with some w25r tml.
chills.

sometimes single is good.
but after a while, something special will be nicer.
depends perhaps ,oh well..

2007-11-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

anyways, had my piano lessons already.
3 lessons so far.
was going well on.

things changed in wushu.
i changed too.
attitude changed toward wushu.

i swear i will surpass 2 of you.((:

i swear i gona train harder.

anywas, went to nadia house on sat.
which was blk 229.
near someone house.
lols.

anyways
beautiful house.
food was nice too((:
especially her chicken wings.

hang out at her house.
her bro's jockey.
cool.

after that we proceed to lot 1.walked around
and we dont know where else to go.
so just add up some random number.
poof.

next station*
bishan.

and we went there
we( merv,corene aka ghost,sufang,isa and me)

walked around.
nothing pretty much there.
been long since i last went there.

and i need to get back home for dinner at 8.
so while in the mrt station.*waiting*

we saw something sticking out from the wall.
corene looking through the hole*

corene:"eh got eyes inside leh"
the rest of us:*looking suspicious*
corene:*called 999, police came in 5 min times.

when police came, they checked and open up.
an eye ball dropped.

nah.just kidding.

when she discovered eye inside.
i also discovered that inside actually was mirror.

so we all laughed at her.
actually ,its pretty funny.
had laughs,laughs that seldom happen.
stupid ghost, say got eyes.

*for your own safety,please stand behind the yellow line*
*da ja qin ju yi,wei le ni de zhi ji de an quan ,qin zhan zai huang xian huo mian"

and reached gombak.
rushed to the place and had dinner.

- sunday,
was working at Toa Payoh courts.
promoter.
no sales today.
totally boredom.

monday
having wushu.
plans for the week

tue, come school for VB challenge with pat and boon , discuss.
wed, same as tue but may practise wushu.
thur,working
friday,wushu
sat+sun working

anyways, happy birthday to auntie jasmine pooh

was doing studies for vb now.
ciaos.
blog next time((:

2007-10-17T09:23:00.000+08:00

hello.

back to blogging.this few weeks are okay.

coupels of good grades.

Cs-ing in class almost everyday.

improving.(:

and facebooking.

lols.

update some old pictures like went out with some w25r to botak jo....

15/10

monday.

Miss Tecko had her graduation day today.

but i cant make it.

kinda sad.

sorry!

very sorry uh!

we used to create a blog.

only two of us.

closest friends every been.

wanting to celebrate each other birthday everytime.

she just special.(:

never gona be replaced.

2007-10-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

damn damn blogger.
they thought my blog was a spam blog.
tskkkk

so they close down for 1 day.
which result the blog went to jail for 1 day of no reason.

interesting.

last week, peeps in w35k bad mouthing each other behind their back.
tsk.
think before you talk.

so what if someone bf/gf is ugly or fat or so on?
so are "u" saying that love is only there for good looking people?
TSK

i feel sad for this guy gf.
tskk.

the only bad mouthing people, perhaps, with a dog following him.(:

fcuk off.

results been good.
getting couple of As.
damn entreprise.
she give me a B,which result in cant screenshot.
damn.

jia you everyone(:
those exam or so on.
hahs.

nowsadays Cs-ing after school.

2007-10-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

hey hey!

happy belated children day to all.

((:

example; ah lian, and da jie pianoist.

yupp.

found 1 grade 8 and 1 grade 9 pianoist in class.

totally cool.

tskkk.

da jie is helpful too.

went for break with cindy and zheng ting.

zt played e piano at cafe.

and she taught me how to play

thanks.

tml teach again yeah.

((:

oh yup.

yesterday night.chat with cindy on phone.

about people in class and analysing.

and also doing the ppt for today ENTREPRISE.

see how hard working we were.

eh.cindy.

just remember, is pei fu((:

i swear.

i dont go for things, i had no confidence in.

anyways, this week dont have piano.

then that merv dont know how to say properly

like attitude like that

might as well dont say.

i waited for so long to learn, not because of the $, is you say e teacher is good.

if next week cannot den i might as well register at the causeway point and learn.

damn.

fcuk.

went for wushu photoshoot just nw
at first, recieved the pink suit.
but luckily can change to the green one.
phew.
anyways, did a couple of spilt.
was quite tiring.
tskkkk

tags replied.

bread: been not going down during breakout 1.so u wont see me there too.

cousin.:woah.next time. now tired neh. using the power. sick of it.((:

kelliu:wad ever.dots.lame.

abigail:linked(:

evann:what is the omg for?dots.linked.

jasmine:why only that day free?anyways, i might be going back for the school graduating day. so skipping school that day.(:

2007-09-30T01:06:00.001+08:00

had a tiring work
but which work dont feel tired?duh

anyways,heard about weiyi say about my daoness from sheena
let me talk about it here and maybe once again, explain more.

since sec 1-2 i been very flirt
as in flirt

which i realised in sec 3 onwards.
which make me changed to avoid girls
as in
-when i see my close or good friends(girls)
reaction comes to me
-avoid. pretended not to see them
and gradually, i used to it.

so i tends not to approach or start a conversation with girls (ppl which are not consider as friends)unless something important.

other reasons that i avoid/ dont start are:
when i feel the girl are too friendly as in will makes other misunderstood her.
when i feel the girls are too proud about her looks which make me feel that her concept is that all guys should come look and her and get her attentio just because she pretty.

totally turned me down.

and so on, that why maybe becos i dao. or maybe not.depend on how u look.
when people start to open up and chat with me, i will too.

anyways back to topic.
went home with sheena
got our pay
200+
damn.so little.
got so much things to pay
school fees to parents+learning of piano+installment of piano+600 for the repair of laptop.
how bad can it be?

next after chatting with sheena about school and the wei yi daoness
people began to sit next to us
as in we are orginally in different seat like i was sitting in front of her seat.
the two-seated yeah?

anyways, after tt a chinese lady sat next to me.
And when i was talking to sheena, she looked and looked.
after that sheena kept on laughing for i dont know what reasons
then kept on chatting till sheena reached her stop

and guess what?!
she played tennis
here it goes

Sheena:i played tennis 4 times a week as in goes for training outside school
Me:wa, must be pro.
Sheena: no la went for competition.
Me:pro le lo.
Sheena: no la, i hit the ball den u see it fly
Me:den got the "tink" sound rite
Sheena:you played tennis ah?
Me:no, sometimes only , in school with friends. you beginner or what?
Sheena:i learned for 8 years.

DAMN.
she must be pro.
and guess what
she learned piano,grade 1, ballet and tennis
awesome
*claps*
COOL

alright.
back again.
after she went home.
the chinese lady looked at me for 2 times which i counted.
den she began to talk to me
surprising.
here it goes.

She:you from china ah?
me:no. singaporean.why?
she: no la, the way you talk/accent like from china
me:oh, no la, i from singapore.you came to singapore for how many years?
she:3 years or more.you studying where?
me:poly.
she:oh poly.
me:wa!you know aht is poly ah.
she:my son now taking N level.
Me:oh what school?
she:yusof ishak, not a very good school
me:hanor hanor.
she: are u stress in poly
me: i think every poly got it different ways of teaching as in for our school,we been using laptops do research compared to other school which might be having papers or notes.
she:my son isnt good at english but others are okay
me:okay i think, the education level of singapore is getting higher and higher
She:are u from english educated family?
me: no la, my whole family speaks mandarin.you son the math very good rite
she:yeah, the 1st among the whole school.

reaching my stop
den i asked,
Me:so where u stop?
she:next next stop
me:oh.
she, explaining why she talk to me, cos i look like her son age
she:where yr stop
which i already at my stop
me:here,

poof* alight e bus.

Online
chatted with ah lian and christine

christine asked me whether i still remember her.
i still remember.
she said she changed, in a good way
i wonder, and hopefully too.

feel sad about my daoness,
so sms and tell ah lian

so online.
she was too.
chatted about it.

and told her about my "power"
which seldom people know.
the people that know are sharon and ah lian

after that began to use my power
by looking at ah lian face and feel for the type of girl she is
and also find out the reasons for the problem and so on.

ah lian said she also got the power.
lols.

after that she said that she hate the power too.
which i know why.
which makes me explain by feeling it.
and maybe becos it too overwhelming and remembering the past.
which make me regret and sort of disliking the "feeling"
and shed tears.

been long since i last shed.

TSK TSK

2007-09-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

hey hey.
alright

updated my blog
which included
the links and the songs
can you all hear the songs?

anyways, cant wait to get piano lesson started.
Tsk Tsk.
read some notes and research about the basic of piano.
interesting.

Was feeling ache due to wushu yesterday.
finally, i learned finish 2nd part.
2 more part to go.(:

REST WELL AH LIAN!
joc and adelyn.
give me your blog links again!
thanks(:

Started to watch 18禁不禁.
the show not bad uh.
got the videos from hai boon.

Ka man intro Rahim a blog
which he intro it to me.
so well, if you are interested, go ahead.
i think its quite funny.
lols.

http://thatbloodycritic.blogspot.com/

going work soon.
seeya.

2007-09-28T16:53:00.000+08:00

Alright. Back to blogging again.
I shall update it.

We had 3 weeks of holiday.
First, “sport day with w25r”,chalet, met up with buddy.
Beside that is simply work.

Okay. I forgot when we had the sport day.
But we played tennis, basketball and soccer.
we are weiming,mervyn,nadia,ria,ria bf, rahman,isa,Patrick,haiboon,me.
Did I miss out any?
Hmmm*

2nd,chalet.i shall upload e photo.
The chalet is alright.
Let pictures do the talking.
Oh ya. Had nice talk session with corene,Patrick,carrie,ziqi regarding the met up with my buddy.
Thanks ziqi for magic tricks.
Thanks to Hai Boon for the hair session
Thanks to corene,Patrick,carrie for the advices.

3rd, sept 06
Met up with Sharon.
I was having fever though, yesterday after Sharon asked me if I sick.
And I said no as that time I was feeling alright.
But after that when I went to sleep, in e middle of the night.
I was feeling hot and realized I am having fever.
TSK TSK!
A curse by her.
And she denied that.
How true can it be?(:
Catch “secret”
Nice movie.
Great, great. !Especially the piano part.
Totally awesome.
Had sakae sushi, sashimi buffet.
Talked about her problem,and need to analyze it well.(:
And after that went home,while she went for drink with her friend.
Take good care(:

And yeah.thanks for the chocolate!!
YUMMY!!

Thanks carrie for the message. Sweet of you(:
**And to think that ziqi ,corene , carrie still msg about the met uo session with buddy.

8th
Worked today, saw Yvonne with someone on e bus home uh!(:
Long time no see her le.
Ah soh le=X!
10th to 13th
WORK straight from Monday to thurs.
I checked the class Roster.
I in W34K.

Oh yeah,my cousin same blk as me.
Chitra e curry same level.i can et e curry of love from her again=X
Sufang and rahman, hungry tell me ah!i send down for u!=D
Chat in msn.
And joked about after looking picture of Mr AW, I feel e motivation of doing VB.
And remember the kopi deal with him!
Strive on,VB!!(:

14th

happy birthday to bro

he got PSP for his birthday gift.

a PINK one

16th

happy birthday to dad

went out and eat.

17th sept

Alright as I said, I in w35K
Tml is the school day.
Gosh,been sleeping late.
Can I get up tml?
Well, nvm about that.
Time flies, and I back to school.
And Guess what, I missed out 3 weeks of wushu.
Busy and feeling sick, so I didn’t attend.
Gona ache tml.
Wushu training.
Okay, and piano lesson gona start during first week ofoctt.
And might getting a piano too.(:

Great.
So having
Wushu
Rollerblading
Learning piano
And might sign up for e nearby gym,so when I free I can go.
And working too.
Ah, at least it keep me busy.(:

Anyone got job to intro?
Might be changing job soon, cos this job cant work for many days.
Maybe the work in pub or what, high pay.
Target $5 and above jobs.(:

20th

knew e class

the class not bad.

though got gamers.

reached school at 9am

the situation came on.

*rahim tried intro first, he intro me

-i was gona drink the water for bottle

so i stand up.

i was about to intro josephine.

when i turned, accidentally hit my bottle onto the lappy

and it bathed.

so i took cab to ACER

and they checked.

so well, and now it went to hospital.

lols.

damn damn.

21th sept

went to school.

tried to borrow school lappy.

but gone.

so no lappy for lesson.

cant do much.

so kept quiet.

okay.

And got C for this module.

damn.

23th

went for wushu

Johnson e new classmate joined me.

and i bought my broad sword.

shall took picture for u all to see.

$55 .cools.

26th sept.

so how am i performing this2 week

science:B, A

math: A, A

Entreprise:B

problem solving:F.

Culture:C.

F= leave for acer.that day when laptop bath

C= no laptop,so i quieter that day

damn.

our class got AH LIAN!

and she say i AH BENG

since when?

liars.=D

Met with Crystal Tay e ah soh e zhu

teached her science.

she was with sec 1 alicia.

uh huh.

heard news about schools.

TSK TSK

anteena long le.

27th

Met with Crystal

had KFC

taught her science and math.

WHOO.

home.

next week at last having my Piano Lessons!

1st lessons!

2007-08-28T01:06:00.000+08:00

went to W25R "sport day"
we had tennis,basketball and soccer.
great time , exercising.
and finally i learned how to kick the soccer ball
=X!

and i skipped the wushu training.

gona buck up soon!

upload some pictures.

2007-08-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

back from camp
SEG camp
had funs
the best part is making new friends.
yups yups.

but overall i will give 5/10
as the way they organise isnt good enough.
need improvement.

pictures will do the talking over here.(:
uploading soon.

oh yeah.
got 1 incident.
when playing the match against other teams, as we decided to thrash this team,
i did one thing that is totally ungentleman and left me guilty.
this girl, who she seems like she do not know how to play, was facing me with the ball.
and i just took it the ball from her which makes me feel so ungentleman and therefore i make friends with her.
gosh.
devils been over me.

2007-08-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

its was the last day of the 1st sem.
guess what
16 weeks had just past off like this.
omg.
time flies, i still can rmb the first day when we all met each other
our fun & laughters will never be replaced
for this, friends forever i promise.
pictures will be upload soon.

we had presentation for all the faci
good job guys!

let pictures do e talking

2007-08-07T10:54:00.000+08:00

i shall update about last week or so
on sat, W25r, patrick, merv,shimin,corene,sufang, wei ming, ziqi,haiboon,xerxes, and me
went to Kbox at cine.
those who sing, were great!
after that we headed down to bugis street and shop for clothes.
bought a shirt and a black jeans
more shopping to go.
didnt bought enough.
enough of talking.
let pictures talk.

the couple, merv and nadia

rahman hannie and faris

us.

nadia and hai boon

isa

su fang

xerxes

corene

shimin

2007-07-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

\
weiming,me,ziqi,faris,isa,rahman
merv,patrick,haiboon

weiming

the slacker act cute

corene; 13th august

zhou yang

is that my leg?

dad and mom

2007-07-31T10:16:00.000+08:00

Last week
Received my pay
$300+ though

Bought a roller blade
Was thinking to buy the $160+
But thinking that beginner will not need such a good one
So bought the average that cost around $99
Perhaps Sunday going out with classmates to bugis to shop for clothes

Didn’t want to but was forced to choose someone out in our rj
Damn

Wushu
Still not sure about some moves
Ought to improve
And determine to strive even better
Jump for tomorrow
Wednesday, roller blade with corene though blisters and bluey black all around the arms and knees
My butt still suffered from falls.

Will it be nice if you online on 13th august and someone with the nick say”hey I finally came out”

Hint*13th august, the start of hungry ghost festival
Or having someone to message you and say hi dad/mom I out today so prepare some food or feast for me?

Seriously, I don’t like that period
Who does anyways
As long as your conscious are clear, you got nothing to be afraid of.
But you will still feel fear in your heart though
Duh.

When can I skip school.
Every morning, feeling tired and not wanting to get up to school.
Yawn
ZzZzZzZ..

took cab today to school.
2nd time.

2007-07-31T09:44:00.000+08:00

Let me congrat belated happy birthday to sherry on 24th july and stephy on 28th july

happy birthday!!(:

2007-07-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

yes.he is sick.((: in e mind.

guess whose hand.
thats su fang.
gross.

she dont allow me to post up her pictures.

thats xerxes and stepfanie.

2007-07-23T12:58:00.000+08:00

what i gona buy

roller-blade.
more clothes
shoes
spectacles
high light hair.

shopping spree.
((:

2007-07-23T12:17:00.000+08:00

i think i am half of my dad and mom

dad.
he is generous among his friends.
doesnt save money
spent without thinking whether the money is enough

mom
spent thrift
prefer to save than spend.
think money for the future.

transmulate.
into me.

sometimes, i will generous to my friends,
provided when i had save enough money.
and sometimes i prefer to save than spent.
so random
see my mood.

2007-07-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

http://wearingmylingeries.blogspot.com/

I shall do translate it from yixian blog.
*some of the questions I skipped due to errors process by translating
Also known as don’t know how to translate.*

1) What goal do you want to be fulfill now
The goal are getting good grade/waiting for fate.
That why I currently thinking now.

2) What will you do if your partner makes you mad?
Depends, try to tolerance/ignore.

3) Will you crush on 2 people or more at the same time?
Maybe.but love is only one.

4) What will you do if you had only one day left?
Try to make the second day/too much to think about.

5) Do you believe in alien?
No for now, unless I see it.

6) What do you think is the most important in character?
Honest.

7) What is the most precious thing that you have now?
Family and friends.

8) What will you do when you had a bad day at work?
Tolerance till 10.30pm

ended

working.
ciaos.

2007-07-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

this few days, i have been keep forgetting things.

let's say for example,

monday,i forgot to bring my laptop charger.i realised when i reached home.

tuesday, i almost forgot to bring my shoe bag to work,thanks to hai boon

i forgot to bring my water bottle home.

whats more?

bought sweets and challenge Su fang.

((:

entreprise today,no wayy.

working.

2007-07-17T13:00:00.000+08:00

hey!

first,let me thanks SU FANG for helping me with my blog?
i think of changing my blog skins.

like something white and simple.
i did some and she helped me with that.

Thanks!
shall bought packs of sweets for you later.

yesterday was my sister ,jessicia birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
pizzas and cakes
(:
she recieved roller blade

i shall buy soon.
pictures soon

working today.

so how ?what do you think of the new skin?

2007-07-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

Hey all,was busying with work,wushu,and studies. Its more about work.
Anyways,what happened past weeks?

Grandma birthday
Celebrated her birthday on 8th july.
The one who make me up to whom I am today
Pictures coming up.

And also we had sort of ang mo cyber webcam in class.
To the extend that that ang mo actually show his d*** in the webcam
And people like hannie was going to be crazy. ;)

Friday skipped wushu cos was dling the files of the modules.
And spent too much time on it, and also went home with steph.
She went for the talk so shun bian go home together.

And also having kbox with my cousins.
She gona teach me and another cousin to sing .
;) thanks thanks.
I shall practice more.

Its better than asking those choir people how to sing,what they will respond is I don’t know. What the use? How the teacher teach them and they don’t know how to teach the others? Tskkkk.

And its also better than someone who critise you when its none of her business.

Pictures coming up soon.((:

Oh yeah. thanks for adelyn called me after work.wait. should be welcome. Cos she got problems, like mental and I helped her and entertain.
Am I good?
Of cos((:

I can entertain once,twice but not forever.

Reflect again
I think I am not committed in my relationships before.
But first what is your meaning of committed? Before you comment.

Yes, I agree that I wont ask for break up, I loved them truly, I wont flirt with others girls, I only want them.

I think I failed in that sometimes I tend to look for something better. And the evilness in my soul.
That’s why I reminded myself that story on the column of my blog.